went down to town with edmund looking at surf wear. kinda disappointing but a few shirts caught my eye, but i'm broke so it was still disappointing eventually. after that i hanged out with my secondary sch buddy, den i suddenly remembered what he told me, wad if a child was taught from young that apples are called oranges, sugar is spicy and chillies are sweet? den i also remembered watching this film about a girl who wasn't deprived of speech skills but her parents locked her up, abused her and only barked(literally) at her, causing her to become a mute. an undergraduate-linguist-wannabe used her as a subject for her PhD thesis, which was that given if a child did not develop speech or communicational abilities in their prime years of learning they would not be able to be taught again how to communicate.
the movie ended with the girl still not able to speak after much struggle the protagonist went through to instill skills to the former, but the way i intepreted was that life is unfair(as usual) and the intern might have suceeded with better luck.

have you been misintepreted by bad communication today?

yo tubs thanx if ya gonna add my link on your page

BONUS POST!!(read this if you are bored)
shucks two days of physics practical drained my energy away. hanged out with my old pal from secondary school and probably pissed myself and him off. there we were walking arnd kino in taka den my old pal, called ben who can become very engrossed with comic books, found an unwrap JLA(justice league adventures) book den he started reading it so i had to accompany him, but i felt hungery and tired and so my attention span cannot match his, so i ended up flipping through this bi-weekly official liverpool magazine. den i badgered him to go off while he insisted on finishing his book which was not your average comic books with double digit pages. turned out he was patient enough to abandon his comic book and we went home! tada that' true friendship for you lala
till then

hey syafiq, first things first we(the guys in class) do agree your emotions are on the downhill, and thus that leads us to think that something is wrong. this sounds super cliche so i was contemplating whether to put this down, you are the only one who can help yourself out here. i can kinda empathize(feel the way you do) and i know that everyone giving you advice all at once does not help at all, thus what makes my advice more important than others. maybe because i've been through you, maybe because i screwed up almost everything on a major scale. there's me in the past none of you(2sa5 or acjc for the matter) knows.

so my advice for you is to work things out, slowly but surely, like my mum told me yesterday what we(teengaers) are going through now is probably just a fraction of our lives. i do have a pessimistic(is this how you spell it?) but pragmatic view of life, no one but yourself is dependable, not because your friends don't want to help but they might not always be available. so you have to work it out yourself.
second reason why you should work it out yourself is because through this you learn how to deal with this problem and should it come again you can handle it with ease.

then again i re-emphasize that i'm not trying to rule over your life and tell you what is right. just some advice from people who are concerned. and i hope i'm not the person you are talking about in your latest blog about the guy who thought u were weak and wasted much of your time and energy, and also hope i'm not sounding like him/her in this blog.

ok since i'm here i might as well update a bit of my blog since it looks really empty.

i think i'm addicted to the thoughts of the day provided by SBStransit on the north-east line trains. today's quote was 7.5 out of 10. it goes something like, "the only thing you cannot recycle is wasted time." then i remember there was this corny quote, "if you cannot help worrying, then remember that worrying can't help you too." because they show these quotes marquee-style on the time-arrival display panels, i end up standing like an idiot staring at it. haha.

ever noticed the haha's and lol's peope add in when they type a sentence. you can actually tell if the person is really talking to you or just merely hanging on the conversation from it. well haha then, til i decide to update my blog.

gee how come other ppl's blog can be customized and decorated while mine is so plain.
nvm this will not stop me frm blogging. this is actually very much like writing my own diary and i never had the habit so this could be a good start.

ever noticed how life is a game of balance? or rather society requires us to be well rounded individuals? like academics and social life, feminism and masculinity, science and arts.
let me explain the feminism part. you see a guy cannot be too masculine or he might be accused to be pigheaded or chavinistic so he has to get in touch with his "feminine" side, fundamentally i wasn't refering to bisexuals. this balance thing is everywhere, sizes ranging from micro to macro. as long as there is a complement action to the things you are doing an equilibrium exists. for example, you wake up in the morning and consider the breakfast contents, should it be high on fibre to stay healthy but you get hungery easily ,high in protein to pacify the somach but of little nutritional value? the obvious answer is a balance of both. have you reached equilibrium today?

haha i actually wanted to abandon blogging amidst much stress and pressure from ppl.
i had exams and common problems of life to deal with, then i had ppl telling me blog are for gals and it's gay for guys. chauvinistic(not me) huh? gay(not me either) as it might be, i want to pour out my feelings to somebody, it's okay if nobody reads, the pseudo is equally satisfying.

BUGS
first of all as the title of my blog suggests, probably this would not be updated frequently.
second of all i think i'm going to be dyslexic soon my speech skills seem to be retarding. maybe more socializing might help.
third and probably including the fourth, fifth, sixth, etc... incapability to self-reflect and thus much mistakes have yet to be pointed out

WHAT'S FIXED
Also due to lack of self-reflecting, much has not been done