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The Ataris
Up, Up, Down, Down, Left, Right, B, A, Start
think the song title is a cheat code to mortal kombat 3. used to be fanatic over that game.
this is like the third time i'm typing this because i think blogger is screwing me up. luckily i'm saving this on notepad.
A few days ago my mum was reading the papers and i saw this article about this guy who stabbed his good friend dead because he suspected that he was asking money back from him. my first thought was like bizzare. the protagonists were actually out picking durians together the day before the murder happened. neighbours also described the murderer as friendly and all smiles.
so my mum was like telling me not to lend money to anyone, not that i had any to start with. she went on to emphasize her point, then i suddenly thought what if i was the person borrowing the money, what if i stabbed that friend. how come ma only thought of me as the "good guy"? what if i grow up to become the felon?
of course when i was young there was no doubt i would grow up to be a contributive part of society. so somehow there is this imposed responsibility by our parents to do the right thing. but as we grow up we are more exposed to more things and get influenced in different ways, our perspective and priorities change and all. then when freedom comes, something we do not have before, we tend to abuse it, because we want to feel empowered. it's simillar to having cologne and using it, not that cologne empowers you but it's something new and you want to try it.
so with this onset of freedom and change in thoughts and ideas i become what i am today. like when you were young, did you ever thought that you would grow up to be such a disgrace? ok i'm only refering to myself here. disgrace meant as in, compared to my ambitions when i was young i'm so far away.
then would it be good if i continue to pursue what i neglected?
ok people i'm just whining. give me your thoughts if possible.
The Ataris
Up, Up, Down, Down, Left, Right, B, A, Start
think the song title is a cheat code to mortal kombat 3. used to be fanatic over that game.
this is like the third time i'm typing this because i think blogger is screwing me up. luckily i'm saving this on notepad.
A few days ago my mum was reading the papers and i saw this article about this guy who stabbed his good friend dead because he suspected that he was asking money back from him. my first thought was like bizzare. the protagonists were actually out picking durians together the day before the murder happened. neighbours also described the murderer as friendly and all smiles.
so my mum was like telling me not to lend money to anyone, not that i had any to start with. she went on to emphasize her point, then i suddenly thought what if i was the person borrowing the money, what if i stabbed that friend. how come ma only thought of me as the "good guy"? what if i grow up to become the felon?
of course when i was young there was no doubt i would grow up to be a contributive part of society. so somehow there is this imposed responsibility by our parents to do the right thing. but as we grow up we are more exposed to more things and get influenced in different ways, our perspective and priorities change and all. then when freedom comes, something we do not have before, we tend to abuse it, because we want to feel empowered. it's simillar to having cologne and using it, not that cologne empowers you but it's something new and you want to try it.
so with this onset of freedom and change in thoughts and ideas i become what i am today. like when you were young, did you ever thought that you would grow up to be such a disgrace? ok i'm only refering to myself here. disgrace meant as in, compared to my ambitions when i was young i'm so far away.
then would it be good if i continue to pursue what i neglected?
ok people i'm just whining. give me your thoughts if possible.
