i think my brain is not focusing.. another 5 hours i would be on a plane to brunei to rough it out in the thick and unkind forests of brunei and worse still the sense of urgency has not got into me yet. the fact that i'm going to brunei is not biting me, i feel as if i'm going to sleep in my bed and wake up the next morning to prepare to book in. therefore i think i'm a terrible person. it's like war has broken out and i still sit in front of the tv. i also feel that i can never drive, not that i don't have the abillity but i don't have the responsibility. i also discovered i am very inconsistent due to the lack of focus, which make my judgements way off, which is why i can never trust myself to drive. but i want to learn to drive anyway. i can't believe that i'm going to be gone for 3 weeks, though it may not seem long to you, it is to me. yeap so here i go.

brunei is going to be so exciting.

i think i'm a speed freak, jumping out of charlie at 1000 feet was an absolute experience.
the first two and a half-second of free fall is so damn cool, i'm motivated to try out free fall jumping at 24000 feet, that would be like so damn shiok. but that would mean signing on and torturing myself hah. maybe i should just go learn how to free fall outside privately. going to brunei for 3 weeks very soon, it's going to be damn sian there man, i'm already picturing the finish line where i'm on the plane back to good old singapore, damn. my toothache and ingrown toenail is aggravating by the day, heh maybe can get mc go home and rest after brunei haha. till next time i will update you more with my uninteresting life as a NSF.