hey mooncake are you reading this? i think you really look like a mooncake when ya put on the helmet.

cheers

Friendster said:

The Bottom Line

An emotional investment will pay off. So try to be patient. You won't regret it.

In Detail

If it makes you feel warm, snuggly and eminently well taken care of, you'll be drawn to try it -- and if there's any way you can afford to buy it, you will. Also, if anyone knows how therapeutic shopping can be, it's you. Just try to avoid malls. You're after quality, not quantity, and you definitely won't settle for anything less. Go hit that new shop downtown. That's where you'll find what you want.

i bought a new phone today! how accurate!

learnt much about smoking from ben and imparted it all to queen slut cheah. lighting up on the dance floor in phuture was fun, i purposedly litted up and blew smoke into ppl's face last friday, hah. what a waste they always play nice music only towards the end. tried a new shooter called quick fuck. made up of 3 tasty liquors layered above each other in this order, kahlua, midori then lastly everyone's favourite irish cream liquor. gotta find that midori, then i can have quick fucks at home hah. used to wonder why the names of shooters and cocktails are called screaming orgasm, sex on the beach, double o, etc.. then i realised it only when i was about to order quickie. it was meant to be a bartender's joke, like a lady going up to a bartender saying," Can i have a screaming orgasm?" you know that kind of cheesy stuff, but it's damn gay for guys, maybe they should have female bartenders hah. just checked on google that midori is melon liquor, thought the bartender was pouring absinthe, was so damn happy for a while. tried dancing to house music, was quite fun though i wasn't even high, some gals started dancing around us, didn't know house was so much fun, only thing was the gals are not our age gee what a waste. poor chengwang he came all the way down to sign us in, then he was so sian throughout the whole thing. in the end he nearly fell asleep dancing, says he's got insomnia.

4th company sucks, the OC thinks that five day weeks are only entitled to regulars and NSFs should only book out on saturdays, what nonsense. i might have to fight atec again at the end of the year, which really sucks. maybe i should downgrade, or just report sick.

it's the time of the week again, have to book in liao.

really looking forward to uni days, yeap like how i was looking forward to ns in jc days. had a talk in taiwan with my dettachment, and champ was saying that humans are cheap, how i agree with that. you know when you were 15 and trying to get into the pool hall by all means and after turning 16 pool and billiards was so boring. before 18 clubbing was so happening and after that it's just a waste of money. we tend to seek what we cannot get, at this point of time everything has lost it's novelty for me, i'm just darned bored. guess i would be bitching and moaning in uni.

but another reason i want to get out of ns is booking in. there's nothing really bad about living in camp, i've got used to it, it's the proocess of going to camp that still haunts me. it's like a sunday and all the great shows are on cable, then leaving my house, my comfort zone, leaving my mum when she's all alone at home, it's so hard even after one year. everytime i leave my mum i feel weird like i'm about to cry, it just doesn't feel right, i don't feel safe leaving her all alone at home, and the look she gives me like i'm-going-to-be-alright, it all just sucks. even on the bus i still can't put myself at ease, the feeling is so strong that even now as i'm describing it i can feel it. i can't help it my mum has been through so so so much to bring me up, i owe her too much, i dont't want her to get hurt or anything. just thinking about how she brought me and my sister up can bring me to tears, i better stop.

maybe i should make more effort to not let her down.

spent the last two days playing ps2 with ben, was a good waste of time like he said. totally pigged out. think i'm getting obese soon, my face is getting rounder and i'm starting to have a beer belly though i don't drink beer. time to revert to my old lifestyle, all work and play. i must say since i've gotten into ns i've learned bad habits like eating supper, must quit now before all of you don't recognize me anymore.

i'm just sooooo freaking bored now. i need to start working out. i need to learn how to drive. i need to spend more time at home. i better find some interesting activity to prevent myself from rotting to death. my foot rot is getting better(i hope). seems unlikely i would be marching in national day parade. i'm going back to 4th company to see my old mates. 355 days to go before i get my pink ic and most importantly my freedom. help brighten my life, just leave me a msg or call me, ask me out for coffee not supper, better still go play soccer or just sweat it out, i don't even mind window shopping.

take action! call me now! actually call me during weekends.