i am so ever grateful to my mum, even though it doesn't seem like it and she is menopausing. because she knows what i would really want at the end of the day. through all those tough times that she and us suffered, it was all just so that i could be like this today. i guess she knows how heart breaking it is to not be able to fulfil the needs of your loved ones.

i remembered after you cried and you told me not to talk about it, i just felt so helpless. like there is no solution and we can't even talk about it, yet the possibilities are just lying in front of them.

i guess i have not seen enough in this world, but i learned truly to be grateful to my family and my loved ones.

i don't care what people say. i think blink 182 were the greatest, i think the only reason i haven't gone crazy in secondary or JC days was because of them. i used to have all their videos and i would watch them over and over again. i started a band with bao and ed because i was influenced by them, i picked up my guitar again because of them. part of who i am today was due to them i guess, though it sounds a bit freakish.

i miss them.

meanwhile let's see what angels and airwaves or plus 44 can show us.

i used to think that i am damn kan chiong, so over the years i calmed myself down. but on monday i realised the truth, i hate people who waste my time or take my time for granted. there was a bloody big jam along TPE that caused traffic to come to a standstill. not because a fallen tree had picked the middle of the road to lie across, neither were there oil spills or pileups in the middle of the road.

there was an accident involving a few vehicles and they were along the shoulder of the expressway. bloody f-ing kay poh singaporeans want to stop and see, i also don't know for f. see so that you can gloat at somebody's misery? see also can, just drive pass and see lor, tmd must apply brakes and slow down to see meh? knn to satisfy your 5 seconds of curiosity traffic comes to a STANDSTILL all the way behind you.

i seriously hope karma comes around.

Blink 182 - Not Now

my heroes. they've decided to go for an indefinite hiatus. oh well here's to them.

to chua: ah yes! as of now, in less than 17 days you would be coming over! don't worry too much about meeting CCBs, they are EVERYWHERE you can't avoid them. so just act as you normally do because it's not your fault that they bumped into you. gotta tell me more when you get back.

and i also realised that i used to take the effort to type my i's capital ahaha. wassup with the mr SCK and rikimaru man, too much dota la brother. though it was pretty funny.

to favourite friend: yo wassup favourite friend! i miss popping by the backdoor of det 1 already, but not so much as to make me want to go back to camp. thanks for asking. my girlfriend? she is more than alright, always demanding for things from me but that is beside the point. things turning bright for you and miss chai after the stay at sentosa?

joga bonito, the other day i was talking to my colleague about it over lunch. we were saying that soccer nowdays are either full of cheats, liars and divers or they are just plain boring and unadventurous. gone were the days of pele and *insert english player that dominated 1960-1980 era*, may i just quote my colleague."when they get the ball you know it's a goal, but you just want to see how it is scored" i'm no nike enthusiast but i think the joga bonito campaign came at quite a good time especially when ronaldinho(can i just call him roho in the blog, his name is ya like kashdfjkahsjkdfhadsfj) is stealing headlines on the sports section. ah favourite friend you sure do joga bonito, so like cantona says, i hope you don't grow up and play like a child. we should meet up for court soccer some day, ask king arthur to organise?