Tuesday, August 31, 2010

another day goes pass as i bum around. this is all because of my slacking about a month ago in the pursuit of a career. have since been actively applying for quite a few jobs this month and hope to see some answers coming month. spent the day doing nothing, replied to pen pal, went downstairs to read a book. the pre-rain winds were kind of nice. i like dark clouds and strong wind, don't know why but i get nostalgic from that. came back up, played a bit of tf2 and got nagged by mum. oh well, was just having a conversation with bryan wong yesterday about how guys our era(and onwards) will surely play computer games and how women should not think that it is something wrong to do. It is merely a guy's way of unwinding after a long day. well for my case i'm wasn't unwinding since i was playing it during mid-day. i guess i was just bored. as i was sitting there minding my own business and reading my book, at the back of my mind i was thinking, i wonder if this is "the life". "the life" that people have been searching or chasing their whole lives. so much so that they cannot pull themselves out of whatever rat race they are in. also watched history channel's sun tzu's art of war. many generals lose sight of the purpose of war, which almost all the time is political. being myopic they pay terribly with the lives of the men under their command. but, "the life" for me would mean buying my mum her own place and making sure both my parents can retire and do whatever fun stuff they want. so sitting there reading my book was only part of "the life". 遠そうですね。 have been toying with the idea of starting a small business, maybe selling food, ever since meeting up with fellow cdos for crabs at amk melben.

learned to play i started a joke two days ago.. i'm always on the verge of tears singing that song, reminding me of how i used to be. kinda like the song in my last post.

feeling fat. i MUST run this morning! wanna get those washboard abs and get 400 bucks from ippt. talk is easy as usual, and like my friend says, after a good night sleep your determined resolute from last night will be reduced by at least 50%. i think i should start minding my image(style my hair, not wear lousy clothes, etc), the next time i date maybe it's time to scout for a potential wife already. so what should i seek in my wife-to-be? i always thought if she had some nice artistic skills it would be a bonus. like if she has a nice voice, i would get her to sing to me whenever i'm feeling down. getting hungry! maybe i should sleep soon and get on with that run when i wake up. tata!

Friday, August 20, 2010

oh. if i do mention that i will consider and edit/finish up the blog post. it almost never happens. so.. yeah let's move on ok?

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

一度はあの光を見たんだよ とてもキレイで
once I saw that light as the most beautiful

でも今思えば汚かった あれはいわゆるBad Day Dreams
but now if I think about it, it was dirty, that was the 'so-called' bad day dreams

光が眩し過ぎて周りが見えず ただただ日々を
the light was so dazzling that the surroundings couldn't be seen, only those bright day

棒に振ってたあの日 今だから笑えるよ
I wielded it like a stick back then, but now I can laugh

一度はあの幕を開けたんだよ とても重くてプレッシャー、
once, I opened that curtain, very serious, such heavy pressure,

イヤ味それに勝つために ただ嫌なヤツで
giving that unpleasant feeling for the sake of winning, I was that disgusting guy

そして気が付くと真っ暗な部屋に一人ぼっちだった
and so it was that if I notice I'm alone in the pitch dark room

終わった…。もう戻れない…。なんて…。歩くのも止めた…。
I ended it… I don't go back any more… that sort of thing… I stopped even walking…


でもI'm not alone. I'm not alone
but I'm not alone, I'm not alone

We're not, We're not, We're not alone
we're not, we're not, we're not alone

お金じゃ買えないもの手に入れて
well, money can't buy the thing I put in my hand


もう一度光浴びて そして今度は騙されぬように
one more time I bask in the light and this time so that I won't be deceived

僕らは今目指すよ 欲望に満ちた青年団
we're aiming now, a group of young adults full of ambition

誰かが言った言葉 それすらその時は流して
somebody said the words, even this time washes away

今になって気付いたよ 欲望に負けた少年団
our spirit is attached to the moment, a group of boys who've succumbed to ambition

So, I know you know? You know I know?
so, I know you know? you know I know?

We have, We have, We have grown
we have, we have, we have grown

捕らわれないようにと上向いて歩く
so as not to not be stopped and turn upwards to walk


もう一度光浴びて そして今度は騙されぬように
one more time I bask in the light and this time so that I won't be deceived

僕らは今目指すよ 欲望に満ちた青年団
we're aiming now, a group of young adults full of ambition

誰かが言った言葉 それすらその時は流して
somebody said the words, even this time washes away

今になって気付いたよ 欲望に負けた少年団
we noticed the moment, a group of boys who've succumbed to ambition

translation not done by me. but i thought the lyrics were nice so i posted. here's the song